Hi Everyone,
My name is Cindy. I am 45 years old. I'm the mother of 3 children, the best things that ever happened to me, a daughter 27 and 2 sons 23 and 16.
I was dx'd with ms in July of 2006, after over 15 yrs of being very sick, and lots of incompetent doctors. At first I was dx'd with postpartum depression, since my first big flare struck 2 months after the birth of my last child. No doctor could ever precisely pinpoint what the real problem was. I think my most favorite thing a doctor told me was, "You are the healthiest sick person I've ever seen". DOCTORS!!!! , Don't you just love em? Also, I find that people, doctors included, just love to tell you how "good" you look, I'll bet a lot of you have heard that one. I think that's why sometimes we are so often misdiagnosed. We just look so darn good , lol.
Finally, in 05 after being in 2 hospitals , on 3 different occasions within a 3 months span, I had a MRI, and there they were, lesions on my brain. It still took me well over a year and many torturous tests, which I'm sure many of you have enjoyed, to finally get a dx of Multiple Sclerosis. I finally knew what was wrong. I had not been "crazy" or "lazy" or "faking it" all those years. I really did have a bonafide disease. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry, so, I did both, lol.So, here I am almost 2 yrs later, and still dealing day to day with the realization that I have this disease, and that, unless they find a cure, I won't get better. I have my good days with this disease and I have my bad days. I know that I have MS for a reason, I don't know what that reason is, but I know there IS a reason. I do know that I am lucky to be here, lucky to have 3 beautiful healthy children, and as long as they are happy and healthy, that's all that matters to me. If there is one thing you learn from losing your health, it's what the really important things in life are. Of course, I would have rather learned a different way, but this was my way.
I'm glad that I found PeopleWithMs. It's nice to have a place to go where there are people just like me, who understand, and are there to listen, if I need to talk, and always ready to laugh and have a good time, which is so very important. We can't let this get us down.
Ok, Enough about me. I wish you all the best in life, and I thank you for what you have brought into my life, with your kindness. I will leave you with my favorite prayer. I think this prayer says it all:
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Cindy
xoxo
Cindy & Sons
Grandpuppy
Daughter & Son in Law
In Loving Memory of Bubba August 14, 1997- April 15, 2008
When God had made the earth and sky, the flowers and the trees,
He then made animals, the fish, the birds and bees.
And when at last He'd finished, not one was quite the same.
He said, "I'll walk this world of mine and give each one a name."
And so He traveled far and wide and everywhere He went,
a little creature followed Him until it's strength was spent.
When all were named upon the earth, and in the sky and sea,
the little creature said, "Dear Lord, there's not one left for me."
Kindly the Father said to him, "I've left you to the end,
I've turned my own name back to front and called you dog, my friend."
Author Unknown
